I went to sleep last night in not such an awesome mood. I was a bit disappointed, and woke up feeling no better this morning.

It ruined what could have otherwise been a pleasant day.

I wish I had a bit more tact sometimes.

Work wise it was a pretty easy/boring day. Mondays never go too slow luckily and now I am at home wishing there was something I could do to feel better and hoping that by tomorrow everything will be back to how nice it was 24 hours ago. I have no idea what I am going to do until bed time and lately I have HATED having nothing to do. I actually wake up feeling horrible some days and still drag myself out of bed because I'd rather feel like crap at work than spend the day by myself. There was a period when I was only working about 20 hours a week where I actually got depressed because there was no reason for me to get out of bed.

So, hopefully something mildly amusing is on tv tonight. Or something nice happens to at least put me in a good mood and give me something nice to think about.

My appetite has also been worrying me lately. For dinner last night I couldn't even make it through a whole piece of corn. If you know how much I like corn, you will know what a dire thing it is if I don't finish every last edible piece I can get. Then at morning tea today all I could manage was a few spoonfuls of yoghurt. I hate when my appetite goes away. I lose weight so easily and I always feel too skinny as it is. I don't know if it's really that noticeable to other people, but when I can see my ribs and pelvis starting to poke out a little bit it's a pretty big blow to me. Last year, in that time where I was depressed, I was the smallest I have been since year 10. Hopefully it wont come to that this time. And yes, interestingly enough I don't comfort eat. When I am upset, whether its a little or a lot, I just can't bring myself to eat.

ANYWAY.

Now that the show is so close and in a matter of weeks I wont have it to focus on anymore I am looking for something else that I can look forward to. I am going away for a weekend with a couple of girls from work which I am really looking forward to. I have a feeling that it will probably be one of the best weekends I have had for awhile. It will be something I haven't done before, and I think that it will be good for me :) After that... I guess I need to find something else to do!