Today, even though I didn't feel much better I went to work anyway because it was less boring and I feel better when I am upright as opposed to lying in bed. I feel kinda better now, it's either the cold and flu medication or the virus has just become a head cold cause the aches are gone, and I feel like my brain is made of cotton wool. Which is much better than just hurting everywhere.
Tonight, later on, I am going out to hang with an awesome person. It shall be a swell evening and I look forward to it.
I have had many nice times lately. Outlook is getting better and better every day. I have things I am looking forward to, promises to be fulfilled and a lot of nice things to look back on that have happened recently.
It's nice to say that things are falling into place naturally, just as I hoped they would.
About two months ago I had a bit of a revelation. Some things just can't be forced. Sometimes, trying as hard as you can for something will only make it less likely to happen. There was a situation in my life where, even though I had all the opportunity I could possibly want, I guess I had a certain expectation of what should happen, when and how. I was trying way too hard and becoming emotional and moody and frustrated. All my hopes were almost taken from me, when I finally decided to step back and let it happen naturally. After all, before I tried to make things happen, they were heading that way of their own accord.
And, with this relaxed attitude, and the renewed positivity I am finding that the wheels keep turning in the direction I was heading, and that they do it better without my help.
Obviously, there are a lot of things you need to strive for. Sometimes though, if it's meant to be, it will just fall into place.
It was funny that I actually had to give someone that same advice a few days ago. Hopefully it works for them as well as it is working for me. But, I'd like to think that, when given the right opportunity, if things don't work out they way you hoped, then maybe it wasn't meant to happen and that you will find you inadvertently found yourself on a better path, or at least became a better person.
There are exactly 6 weeks until my 23rd birthday. There is not really a lot I hope to accomplish in that time. I guess I have reached a stage where I am happy to let things chug along at their own pace and I'll savour the moments while they last. I am in no hurry right now. I've grown up enough that I'm not impatient to grow up further, and I still have enough time left to do what's important. I'm in a happy place at the moment, and I have a lot to enjoy right now. The only thing I hope is that in 6 weeks time I am not in exactly the same place I am now. I hope that I have learned a little bit more, and that my relationships have grown a little stronger.
I really wouldn't ever want to swap lives with anyone.
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